Lately I’ve been trying to do more stuff just because I want to have a rich life. However, I almost always pay for it with pain afterwards, even if it’s just driving in the car somewhere or going on a long walk. This balance though is something I choose to accept because I’m sick of being sick. Unfortunately I’m going to keep being sick anyway. I can’t help that, but I can help how I live. I will have period where I need to rest more afterwards, but if you know someone who has fibromyalgia please stop bringing up that one good day they had two years ago where they could do a lot. Understand that almost everything we do is a sacrifice because it’s paid for with pain.
My anniversary is coming up. No, it’s not the anniversary of when I got married. I’m still waiting on that one. Instead, it’s the anniversary of when I got sick. Sure, there isn’t a greeting card for that but it is a pretty big deal to me. I always struggle with how to commemorate it.
So how do I celebrate the occasion? I’ve started being extra kind to myself. If you love someone with fibromyalgia bring them flowers just like you would on any other anniversary. It would be so cool to get a glass with a twist – cylinder vase and have the date on it or just a loving sentiment. That way you can bring her flowers all year long. Sometimes you don’t know how to deal with a loved one who is in chronic pain. You don’t know what to say. Bring flowers and a card, it never gets old. It’s one of the most important times to ramp up the thoughtfulness and romance. Be sweeter than you have to be, even if it’s just for yourself!
So far Jillian Michael’s Body Revolution is going pretty slow because I got pretty sick. Now I’m starting on level 2 and gaining momentum. Even though it’s a 90 day program I know it’s going to take me a lot longer than 90 days just because of fibromyalgia but I really do want to see it through to the end.
Lately I’ve had more time to work on some of my hobbies and I really want to start playing music again. I wish I would have more carefully considered whether to get an acoustic or electric guitar before I bought mine. I ended up choosing an acoustic guitar because it was cheaper. However, I should’ve taken into account what kind of music I like to listen to. That’s the kind of music of course I want to play. Plus, I just don’t sing very well so knowing just a few chords on an acoustic guitar just isn’t going to cut it. If I would’ve chosen an electric guitar I’m sure I’d be a genius at it by now.
It used to be that I wouldn’t tell people I have fibromyalgia. It’s unlike having any other disease because you get so much negative feedback on it. I’ve tried to be more open this year about telling people about it because my life really doesn’t make sense unless someone knows. I have been met with:
1. Maybe you aren’t really sick. Maybe you are a hypochondriac.
2. Are you sure you are sick? You don’t look sick.
Dealing with the way other people deal with this disease is probably my least favorite part other than the actually being in pain all the time part. How do you answer those questions?
I’ve written before about how I’ve changed my fashion sensibilities because of chronic pain. One of the biggest switches was that I started going for boot cut jeans. For awhile skinny jeans were so popular that it was difficult to even find a pair so I held onto the same ones for years. I’ve been noticing in fashion magazines that boot cut jeans are back and I had fun looking through all the styles at Eli’s Western Wear ladies boot cut jeans.
Here are the reasons why boot cut jeans are better for me:
1. They aren’t as tight. Even when I wear the stretchy skinny jeans I can feel more pain in my legs and ankles.
2. They work with all kinds of shoes. I like the look of boots over skinny jeans but again I find this to be extremely uncomfortable and painful. I never know what shoes to wear with skinny jeans except for boots.
I’ve found when I wear jeans that are comfortable I can stay out and about for a little longer and it’s so worth it!
I know I wrote over two weeks ago that I was going to start Jillian Michael’s Total Body Revolution. I did but I’m only on Day 4. It’s much more difficult than I had anticipated. I had built up confidence from the 30 Day Shred but that was only a handful of workouts over and over. This has several different workouts a week and since I never master any of them, they all feel like the most difficult ever. I’m going to do better in the coming week. Ready, Set, Go!
When I was looking for a guitar I really wanted to get a nice piece that would last for decades. However, I also needed something affordable that would work for starters. I’m really glad that I decided to go in that direction just because I only play it a couple times a year, if that. It has never held me back and I have never needed to upgrade. It was a good purchase even if I don’t play that often just because other people can use it when they visit. Even though I don’t play as much as I like and it does take up space.
For my next experiment I’m going to try Jillian Michael’s Body Revolution. It’s a 90 day program but I’m going to take it at the pace that feels right for my body. Some days I may have to skip itnif I’m not feeling well. Other days I may just have to do half a workout. I still saw good results from 30 Day Shred doing this so I’m excited to try the approach again. When I tried to do 30 Day Shred on a 30 day schedule it really wrecked me so I’ll slow down this time.
My tip for the day is something that I wish I would’ve learned before I bought furniture. I’ve written before about how there are only one or two chairs in the entire word where I can sit for a long period of time. I only own one of those. I can lay on my couch but even though it’s very comfortable I can’t sit there.
In my current place I have a sofa and a chair. This is fine when it’s just me but I am always laying down on the couch. I really should’ve bought a sectional so I could lay down and several other people could sit on the couch. It will be my next purchase. I need it to fit a fairly small room so I was looking at Small modular sectional sofas at ClubFurniture.com. It’s really the only solution. When I went furniture shopping I tested out couches by sitting on them but I really should’ve tested them by laying down and figuring how much seating space I would need if I was taking up all that extra room.