It might just be that it’s January but my online earnings are really in a slump. My traffic has gone up but my cpc is the lowest that I can remember in the six or so years I’ve been doing this. It just reminded me how much I love working online. I haven’t really had to worry through the economic downturn. I’ve always been able to find work. I know that from a searching perspective people are using the internet more all the time. I mean we need it to keep in contact and find everything from a richmond tennis center to cute shoes. There has to still be a way to work online.

This month though things are different. In the past whenever my sites weren’t doing too well it was really easy for me to just go back to freelance writing. However, I’ve found that it’s not really an option right now. When the content mills crashed a lot of people lost tons of work and their livelihoods. Then those writers all started competing for the same private clients. I know that it is still possible to make a living that way but I just don’t think it’s for me. Instead, I’m going to keep working on my niche sites. I’m pretty sure it’s just the nature of the internet.

That’s what I wanted to say to my body this weekend. I had everything planned out where I could have a comfortable and joyous Christmas. Then I got stomach flu, and threw out my back, and got a migraine. I wished I had a stop watch, or maybe Luminox blackout watches to see how long it took a new kind of pain to show up. The last two seem to happen whenever I rest too much. That’s on top of my regular fibromyalgia pain and the stress of the holidays. Sometimes my body is just a big bully. How was everyone else’s Christmas?

I’m proud of my life. I’ve fought for anything in it that resembles something normal. This includes working even though I work from home, living on my own, and finishing college. It’s just normal everyday things that I really had to fight for because of fibromyalgia. However, when people don’t know I’m sick I think my life just looks weird. It has to do with the fact that it seems like I have so much free time when really that is when I’m sick. That time of rest is what keeps the rest of my life going. It’s really taught me not to judge other people, has anyone else had this experience?