A month after using Mederma

It’s been a little over a month since I started using Mederma to try & reduce the appearance of scars that I had from a gallbladder surgery over ten years ago. I tried everything to make the scars disappear but I’d stayed away from Mederma just because it seemed really expensive. So I decided that I would follow the directions & see where I was after a month.

I applied Mederma regularly three times a day. I noticed a huge improvement on newer scars, they really faded. I haven’t noticed much improvement on the older scars but the directions say that it could several months for older scars. I still haven’t used all of the Mederma, it lasted longer then I expected it to. So all in all, it wasn’t a miracle but it did help. I’ll keep using it for at least a few more months. Has anyone else tried Mederma?

Things that were lost in the fibromyalgia

Fibromyalgia has taken a lot away from me. I had to stop playing the violin two years into my illness because my hands couldn’t move like that anymore. I’ve obviously never run a marathon. It’s a constant struggle to find a job that I can manage with my health. Plus, it takes a toll emotionally & physically. There are some things that it hasn’t taken away though like my family. I can still laugh. In fact it’s even more important for me to find humor now.

Lately, I’ve been grumpy. There is no other way to say it. Granted, I’m sarcastic by nature. I don’t want to change that. I’ve never been as sweet as a Maclaren stroller. My sarcasm is used to make people laugh, not to be mean. Lately, I just don’t have the patience that I once did because I’m so exhausted. I can hardly mumble let alone utter encouragement. I try not to glare at people when I get woken up for the 17th time.

However, kindness & basic human decency is something that I’m determined to keep even though it’s difficult at times. I still want to be someone that people want to be around & that brings joy to others. Also, if the post title doesn’t make sense that’s because it’s a play on the title “Things that were lost in the fire” which I never saw so I probably shouldn’t be basing titles off of it.

My fibroaversiary

I just realized that I have been sick for thirteen years this month. I don’t remember the exact day that I got sick anymore. I think it was the 28th. The actual day used to really bother me so it’s a good thing that I don’t remember.

However, I got in the habit of turning it into a spa day or treating myself to something nice. It means that I’ve made it another year & gives me hope that next year will be even better. Do you remember the exact day/moment when you got sick?