I try to stay positive about my situation in life and fibromyalgia in general. I usually do an ok job of this but sometimes it just gets overwhelming. I wasn’t feeling well last week and I hadn’t gone shopping in a while because I was waiting until thanksgiving. This meant that everything in my house had to be cooked; no convenience food around.

I was exhausted from cleaning all day and I was super hungry. I started making squash which is more work then I was up for. Plus it messed up the kitchen. I’m not a cook and I somehow angered the squash. It tasted like sulfur and the whole house smelled like rotten eggs. So my once clean house smelled horrible, there were dishes everywhere and I still didn’t have anything to eat. It just felt like so much to handle until I stepped back and looked at it. It was nothing that I couldn’t fix.

When a person is sick there’s a tendency to get overwhelmed, a valid tendency. I remember one time when I almost had a nervous breakdown just because the blinds in the kitchen broke. I was practically hysterical and could trace out exactly how the blinds would ruin my life. One of my friends pointed out “Ok, I know you are stressed out but the blinds fell. That is all that happened. I know for a fact that you’ve pushed yourself through school and to find a job that you can do with fibromyalgia and you aren’t going to be taken down a set of blinds.”

Then I could just laugh and envision my biography “She was doing so well until the blinds fell.” I use that analogy a lot, “The blinds fell”, even when it’s for something else. Sometimes the blinds fall but you can put them back up when you feel better.

This entry was posted on Monday, November 23rd, 2009 at 10:15 am and is filed under Fibromyalgia Support. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.