What if things were actually good?
I live in the perfect apartment. I love my job. The new town is great. People come from all over the world to visit and even hike in breeches, and I get to live here. It’s like a permanent vacation. I’m in the spot where I’ve always wanted to be. I’m trying to become a positive thinker. When I envision my ideal life I have trouble coming up with anything I want to change in the future. I love it here.
Yet, I’m still worried. I’m worried that I won’t always be able to live here or that my good job will disappear. I think it stems from the fibro. I get so caught up in the daily pain and drudgery of the illness that I forget that things can actually be good. Not everything has to be difficult. I really want to enjoy whatever time I have in this town and not worry. Any suggestions?
June 10th, 2009 at 2:57 pm
I’m not an expert and lord knows I struggle with positive thinking but I always return to the Serenity Prayer when in doubt:
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
This helps me focus on what I can do, and not worry about things out of my control. It also really helps staying in the here and now as well, by getting you to focus on what you can do, in this case, your writing.
Hope this helps, it sounds ideal where you’ve ended up and I hpe you get to stay as long as you want.
Ed.
June 19th, 2009 at 10:17 am
Meditation is what really helps me and listening to inspirational audio cds are really doing great for me. Try the Secret… it really helps me listening to it.
June 19th, 2009 at 12:20 pm
I struggled with a depression after I finished college, mostly because I had no idea what to do, I felt like I wasn’t going anywhere, didn’t had a job and basically just hated myself for thinking I’d missed a lot of opportunities for being afraid to try them. So I think you’re pretty good right now. It takes courage to move in a new place, get a new job and manage all by yourself. Think about this when you’re afraid. You can’t always control everything, you can control only the things and actions that you do. Starting little is always good, and remember that a lost of persons who are living alone go through the same things as you do daily. Yet we manage to survive somehow and maybe find some happiness too.