With fibromyalgia, I’m used to working through the pain. I’m used to just soldiering through things. I push myself to finish things, to look normal, act normal. Today I was at my local super center, also known as fibromyalgia hell, trying to get used to the new lay out of the store. The new layout isn’t bad, it just means that I had to walk around the store several times to find things. I never did find office supplies. If I was looking for Quinceanera invitations I would’ve just gotten them online, but I needed some office supplies immediately. I was literally hunched over the cart thinking “I will make it through this, just take another step. Ok good.”

I suddenly realized, “I don’t have to do this. I don’t have to make myself sick over shopping. I can buy what I have in my cart & leave” I’m so used to being in a crisis situation like having to finish college or work. I forgot that sometimes it’s ok to just stop whatever it is that’s making me sick & rest. I’ve been sick for half of my life, I should’ve learned this by now.