I hope I don’t sneeze
Wikipedia describes fatigue as:
varying from a general state of lethargy to a specific work-induced burning sensation within one’s muscles. It can be both physical and mental. Physical fatigue is the inability to continue functioning at the level of one’s normal abilities
Sarakastic defines fatigue as:
the feeling that if I sneeze, my body won’t be able to handle it & I will fall apart into a lot of pieces of Sarakastic on the floor.
I think this is the general feeling of fibromites. Luckily, I’ve been able to manage my social, personal, & work life so I don’t fall to pieces literally or figuratively. When I first heard about from a company that I work for that we needed to be prepared for something which they can’t disclose, I almost burst into tears & no those weren’t tears of joy. I just didn’t feel like I could handle one more thing.
I already push myself so much. This has left me in a frenzy to basically keep my “job” or to find something else to do. Granted, I love what I do & I’m proud of my blogs & the things I write, I just want to be able to keep doing it. This is really the test of all the previous experiments I’ve done, I have to put everything together. I’ve decided I’m just going to work as hard as I possibly can until November. That way either my blogs will be ready, or they will be ready for something else…I hope. I just hope I don’t sneeze.
September 5th, 2007 at 1:13 pm
Sara, I laugh at myself sometimes - a few years back, I expressed a desire to be a fulltime blogger, and likened it to “playing on my computer all day in my jammies.” And now that I am one, I think how very naive I was back then. Blogging is freakin’ hard work. Not just the writing, but the management, the constant tweaking of monetization programs and code - then there’s actually publicizing the blog and getting readers …
I need to go lie down now. Don’t wear yourself out, ‘kay? “Extreme self care” is my favorite phrase this year.