Gratitude isn’t my strong point. Cynicism, sarcasm, persistence & stubbornness, well if there was an Olympics for such things, I would take several medals. Fibromyalgia is tough, being sick everyday is tough, life in general is just tough. Therefore, I am tough. I see gratitude as a sign of weakness. This is something I want to change, so at least until Thanksgiving I am going to keep a gratitude journal.

Today I am grateful for my eyes. I was once taught a church class full of 3 year olds & the lesson in the book was entitled “I am thankful for my eyes”. There were subsequent lessons on I am thankful for my ears, nose etc. I laughed at the time, but it’s true, I am thankful for my eyes. I often focus so much on what is wrong with my body that I forget what is right with it. A few weeks ago my eyes started hurting. I usually try to delay going to the dr. until I have too. Usually they just tell me that I’m a “medical marvel” & send me home. Or worse say, “You have fibromyalgia what do you expect?” even though whatever I’m complaining of isn’t a symptom commonly associated with fibro.

The eye pain got worse & worse. I usually experience a low level of eye pain & it’s checked out as just being fibro. However, I was so sensitive to light that I needed absolute darkness, I couldn’t read, work, watch TV. I only get one set of eyes so I am pretty careful with them, so I sucked it up & went to have it checked out.  Things checked out normal even with the optometrist & after a few days, my eyes stopped hurting. Still no idea as to what happened, maybe I just strained them too much. I will never take my eyes for granted again. I truly am thankful for them.

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