I’m a happy girl. As I was drifting off tonight I was thinking “this is a good pillow it doesn’t burn my skin”. Then something clicked & I sat up thinking, “holy crap I’m not in pain”. I did a quick assessment & realized I did not hurt anywhere. I haven’t changed anything to trigger this, maybe taken slightly longer naps & worked less. It’s been this way for about 3 hours, although the pain is slowly creeping back in. Even so, this is the first time I have not been in pain in 3 years. No remission, not even a decrease in pain, just for the past 3 years, everyday has been grueling.

I want to wake up everyone with mass phone calls & texts messages telling them to get to my house immediately so they can see how I can sit in an uncomfortable chair & wear shoes. (Yes, I’m wearing shoes right now, at 2 in the morning, just because I can). I want everyone who has shared in my pain to share in my few hours of non illness. I want everyone who has comforted me to be able to sit next to me & watch me have actual energy & vitality. This isn’t entirely practical because I don’t want to mess up anyones sleeping patterns, but a party is in order! I don’t really know what to do, I want to go running, but bad idea I know.  I’ve enjoyed just holding very still & noticing that my sheets don’t hurt me, my clothes don’t hurt me, I can open my hand all the way with no difficulty. I’m sure tomorrow, I’ll be in pain again, mostly because I’m not asleep at 2 in the morning. That’s ok though, tonight I am not in pain, & it is a much needed break. For now though, I’m profoundly grateful, happy, & am going to go jump on my bed.

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